Do you ever get the feeling that things in your life need just a little adjustment? Something is off, you know it. You can feel the slant in the ground on which you walk, even though it looks to your eyes as flat. You see the sun, not really reach the highest point of the sky, but rather just off to the south. The North star does not point to true North. Everything in your life seems just off tint, like a picture filtered with the wrong light or a painting of a purple sky and orange fields.
It is inside this tilt, this need of adjustment, that all of us live. Everything is always slightly off. There is no perfection. Everything seems wrong. You find yourself trying to over come the tilt. Like when you lean forward going up a steep hill, just to keep your balance. And yet you still feel the slant and despite your try to adjust the world, that slant will remain.
This quandary has been on my mind for some time now. My best friend (whom I shall not name) has been dealing with this problem for years. Only there is a time when in trying to fix the problem, we cause a whole other set of problems, worse than the ones before. Like when a picture is hung wrong, and instead of fixing how the picture is hung, you tilt your head to the side, trying to see it as you should. Only you get a kink in your neck. Or in tilting you make the tilt of the picture worse, not better.
If something is 99.99% right, can we feel the 0.01% wrong? Is there a way to live with the tilt of the world, without losing ourselves to further tilt, further slant? As I struggle to become the best of myself, how do I deal with the percent of wrong? The percent I can not change?
Perhaps like all good pragmatics, I will wait till tomorrow to answer my questions with new questions.
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