Big Changes

There are times when you have big changes in your life. Normally this causes some kind fear or perhaps excitement (maybe both). Sometimes changes actually break you down and you have a hard time dealing with anything. Fear can over run your life and totally box you in. Or in your excited you do so much that you wear yourself out.

Little changes tend to not make that big of a impact. There might be a little fear, but we laugh at it. A little excitement, but its not enough to really get us going. Little changes sometimes pass you by and you don't even know they are happening.

Today I'm dealing with a huge change. Not just a little one with little fears. A huge, scary, change. True I have know for sometime it was going to happen. True I have braced myself for this day. Amazingly the fear has not fully hit me yet, neither has the excitement. I think somehow my mind knows the change has happened, but it has not processed it yet. Or maybe I already processes it. I was expecting that I would be freaking out by now. But no. I'm calm. I'm ok. I'm happily writing on my blog. Stranger things have happened.

Probably the most amazing thing about all this is how much peace I feel. Yes, the nervousness is still hanging on the fringes of my mind. Yes, my stomach is tight with expectation (and hunger, I really should eat breakfast before 10am). But I was expecting insanity and craziness and fear and horrible things. Instead I have the fear and excitement of a little change. Maybe it just has not sunk in yet. We shall see.

Here is to Big Changes... and no fear.