I Just Realized

I just realized that I'm not very funny
I think that I am, but I realized I'm not
not really,
I just realized that I'm too oft alone
Its not your fault, but I need a little help
its too easy,
I just realized that I've been waiting
for what I'm not sure, but I'm good at it
really good,
I just realized that I forgot to tell you
I felt that you should have known
obviously,
I just realized that I'm forgetful
of all the important things I should know
...
I just realized that I'm not very funny
You think that I am, but I'm not,
not really
I just realized that I hate my self
not all the time, but right now I do
Really do,
I just realized that I've never stepped out
I just realized that I always back down
I just realized that I'm not very funny
I just realized that I laugh way too much
I just realized I don't get life at all,

not one bit.