So I have a new nail polish. Its a bright jewel tone aqua. Now normally I do not paint or even pay attention to my nails. But the last couple of weeks I have been spending more time playing around and making my nails look nice. In fact I have realized that since I started living on my own I have spent more time on how I look. I'm not sure what the cause of this is. Is it living in the city and wanting to fit in as a hip city girl? Is it the fact that I care more about what people think when they see me. Is it that attention I get when I look nice? Or am I simply turning into my mother.
My grandma has a billow that reads 'mirror mirror on the wall I am my mother after all' And in some ways I guess this is true. And its not all bad. My mum always looks nice and professional for work and likes to look nice for church, she's a great mother and wife, a great cook, and gardener. But in other ways I think this all as more to do with growing up. I don't think I'll really grow up, but I'm getting to the place were I want to be grown up. Perhaps that is the first step. And lets face it, wearing bright colored aqua nail polish that complements my coral sweater, is not at all a boring 'grownup' type decision.
I hope I never turn into a boring grownup. I would rather be a bag lady then a grumpy old women. I would rather be artistic on the side of eccentric than normal on the side of boring. Who wants to be normal, or everyday? So I do my hair, paint my nails, wear skirts and dresses to work and high heals. I still don't wear makeup everyday and I tend to wear slightly crazy jewelry. Not to mention my favorite color is still orange.
So is this growing up? Or is it simply a better understanding and freedom to be myself? Or are they the same thing?
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