Last night, as I do every Monday, I went to Belly dance. This is at the moment my only real form of exercise, and I really do enjoy it. Of course I always end up sleeping extremely hard afterwards, and have a really hard time waking up the next morning, but its so good.
But last night I realized, while I was walking alone back to my apartment that my focus has shifted of late. Although I still like acting and still want to perform, I find my writing side as slowly started to take a higher place in my life. I'm not sure what the cause of this is. Is it because I fear the rejection that so much of theatre tends to lend towards actors? Or is it a real shift in what I want in my life? I have been thinking for a while that I might return to school and concentrate on play writing, but I don't believe that means that I will be leaving behind performance art. I love performing, I love dancing and movement and 'becoming' another person for a short period of time.
So now I ask the void, what do I really want from my life? How can I best reach whatever goals I have placed in the back of my mind? And how can I best move forward, forgetting the fear or rejection, which I know is part of the process? How do I rid my self of fear?
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